The Real Me

Taken from my mind
are dreams I wanted to know
are slumbers I wish to have
are friends I once loved so much.

Now filling my mind
are nightmares I did not want
are bars to keep me locked in
are restraints that bind my wings.

For I will never fly
heading into a pale blue sky
for I will no longer soar
I live the life I abhor

Forever I long to be
on a cloud, oh so free
but never do they see
who’s inside, the real me.

Playlist

Wait.... An Undead Antichrist Superstar filled with Darkness and covered with Shimmering Scars and Colors that is wondering, “What's This Life For?” on a Lonely Day. He’s always looking for Another Way To Die, so he can be Driven Under the Cemetery Gates because he does not want to be an American Idiot, which would be The Great American Nightmare. He, in a Careless Whisper, says, “Everybody Knows that Every Rose Has It's Thorn.” Then he meets an Alien flying Higher, and She's A Rebel, so he tells her, “You! Why Don't You Get A Job? Because I'm Gonna Be 500 Miles from here tonight.

Air

You are the very air I breathe
You are everything I need you to be
You make my soul feel free
Your love grows forever inside me

2011 Reading List

Alice in Zombieland by Lewis Carroll and Nickolas Cook
Coraline by Neil Gaiman
Day by Day Armageddon by J.L. Bourne
The Dreadnought by Cherie Priest
Eat Slay Love by Jesse Petersen
Flip This Zombie by Jesse Petersen
Hoot by Carl Hiaasen
The Living Dead edited by John Joseph Adams

• “This Year's Class Picture” by Dan Simmons
• “Some Zombie Contingency Plans” by Kelly Link
• “Death and Suffrage” by Dale Bailey
• “Ghost Dance” by Sherman Alexie
• “Blossom” by David J. Schow
• “The Third Dead Body” by Nina Kiriki Hoffman
• “The Dead” by Michael Swanwick
• “The Dead Kid” by Darrell Schweitzer
• “Malthusian's Zombie” by Jeffrey Ford
• “Beautiful Stuff” by Susan Palwick
• “Sex, Death and Starshine” by Clive Barker
• “Stockholm Syndrome” by David Tallerman
• “Bobby Conroy Comes Back from the Dead” by Joe Hill
• “Those Who Seek Forgiveness” by Laurell K. Hamilton
• “In Beauty, Like the Night” by Norman Partridge
• “Prairie” by Brian Evenson
• “Everything Is Better with Zombies” by Hannah Wolf Bowen
• “Home Delivery” by Stephen King
• “Less Than Zombie” by Douglas E. Winter
• “Sparks Fly Upward” by Lisa Morton
• “Meathouse Man” by George R. R. Martin
• “Deadman's Road” by Joe R. Lansdale
• “The Skull-Faced Boy” by David Barr Kirtley
• “The Age of Sorrow” by Nancy Kilpatrick
• “Bitter Grounds” by Neil Gaiman
• “She's Taking Her Tits to the Grave” by Catherine Cheek
• “Dead Like Me” by Adam by Troy Castro
• “Zora and the Zombie” by Andy Duncan
• “Calcutta, Lord of Nerves” by Poppy Z. Brite
• “Followed” by Will McIntosh
• “The Song the Zombie Sang” by Harlan Ellison and Robert Silverberg
• “Passion Play” by Nancy Holder
• “Almost the Last Story” by Almost the Last Man by Scott Edelman
• “How the Day Runs Down” by John Langan

Part of The Living Dead 2 by John Joseph Adams

• “Alone, Together” by Robert Kirkman
• “Danger Word” by Steven Barnes & Tananarive Due
• “Zombieville” by Paula R. Stiles
• “The Anteroom” by Adam-Troy Castro
• “When the Zombies Win” by Karina Sumner-Smith
• “Mouja” by Matt London
• “Category Five” by Marc Paoletti
• “Living with the Dead” by Molly Brown
• “Twenty-Three Snapshots of San Francisco
• “The Mexican Bus” by Walter Greatshell
• “The Other Side” by Jamie Lackey
• “Where the Heart Was” by David J. Schow
• “Good People” by David Wellington
• “Lost Canyon of the Dead” by Brian Keene
• “Pirates vs. Zombies” by Amelia Beamer
• “The Crocodiles” by Steven Popkes
• “The Skull-Faced City” by David Barr Kirtley

Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs
Part of Poe’s Children edited by Peter Straub

• “The Bees” by Dan Chaon
• “Cleopatra Brimstone” by Elizabeth Hand
• “The Man on the Ceiling” by Steve Ransnic Tem and Melanie Tem
• “The Great God Pan” by M. John Harrison

Vampire Stories edited by Richard Dalby

• “Phantoms” by Ivan Turgenev
• “Dracula’s Guest” by Bram Stoker
• “The Haunted House” by ‘E. Bland’ (Edith Nesbit)
• “An Episode of Cathedral History” by M. R. James
• “‘And No Bird Sings’” by E. F. Benson
• “The Lovely Lady” by D. H. Lawrence
• “The Author’s Tale” by L. A. Lewis
• “Close Behind Him” by John Wyndham
• “The Woman On The Stairs” by Margery Lawrence
• “Vampires Ltd.” by Josef Nesvadba
• “Chastel” by Manly Wade Wellman
• “The Apples of Sodom” by David G. Rowlands
• “The Master of Rampling Gate” by Anne Rice
• “The Undead” by Robert Bloch
• “China Rose” by Ron Weighell
• “Saint Sebastian And The Mona Lisa” by F. Kidd
• “Quiet Is The Night” by Jessica Palmer
• “The Last Sin” by Ken Cowley

Part of Vampires: Encounters With the Undead edited by David J. Skal

• “The Book of Vampires” by Dudley Wright
• “The Phantom World” by Augustin Calmet
• “Tale of a Russian Vampire” by Helena Petrovna Blavatsky
• “Vampires of Roumania” by Agnes Murgoci
• “The Vampyre: A Tale” by John Polidori

Star Wars: Death Troopers by Joe Schreiber
A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L’Engle
I cannot believe how little I have read this year.